Name: Daljit Singh Sokhi

Age: 24

Lives In: Toronto, Ontario, Canada

Inspired by Humble the Poet. Each poem is done using my own original ideas.

 

zodiaccity:

Zodiac Files: Taurus would probably be more confident if….

zodiaccity:

Zodiac Files: Taurus would probably be more confident if….

Can’t seem to get her out of my head, thinking about her every night. Too afraid to say it, perhaps maybe because I already know the answer. I’ve been through that shit, it never ends well. Caught in between the “what ifs” and the “maybes”, I guess that what is bugging me the most.. I want to let go of it, even if she is probably right for me. Because even if she says yes, I could never bring her into a family that wouldn’t accept her. Doesn’t help that she isn’t of Indian descent; not a Sikh nor a Hindu. That begins the trail of problems. For her, family is one of the most important things. Whenever I am at her house, I see how close she is to her single mother. The single pillar of strength holding her up. Family is just as important to me, but as much I would be happy being with her, I would not be entirely if my family isn’t. Most importantly, I look at just how happy she is right now, then you look at me. Over recent years I have become more tempered, cold, just pissed. I need to be just like her before I start any committed relationship…and that is gonna take me a long time. With her, or with anyone else.

I laugh at myself sometimes, that I always seem to develop strong feelings for those I can never be with. She is probably the one i feel strongest about since the first girl from high school. The girls in between never did hold up my interest for long, or they never had interest in me for that long. Its a bit crushing, holding in so many negative emotions bottled up and act like everything is cool. It won’t hold for long, as she is already beginning to see that there is something bugging me. And if she asks what it is, knowing me, i’ll lie to her and say something to avoid having the conversation about how I really feel about her. The last thing I want is losing her. She does bring out a side of me that was buried years ago, a side that is most real about me. I have a lot of love to give, a lot of compassion to share. But that is the reason why I buried it. I hate being vulnerable, emotionally. I tell myself that it would be best for me and her, that I get over my feelings for her as fast as possible, and continue my role in her life being her friend, her ally, someone she could talk to should anything arise in her life that is problematic. 

I tell myself that…

Its been told to me that I am doing harm to myself by not saying anything, or it isn’t healthy. As if I actually want to do this to myself. That I am voluntarily wanting to feel like shit. No, it isn’t voluntary. Confusing thoughts about how much I appreciate her, versus how everything at home is now perfect. Bringing her into all this, would create an imbalance that I had to live through so many years within my family. I don’t want to be the reason to cause another imbalance.

It fucking sucks. Love, it makes a fool out of me. Makes me go through stressful situations; because it is always with someone that’s incompatible in some way. I’m not the one to fall into this “curse” easily. To have physical and emotional attraction to someone, it takes a lot. That girl has to be something so special, when I give up to those feelings, I fall hard. And when it doesn’t work, I fall even harder. So I walk around with a pissed off attitude all day because of it. Its like the complete opposite of what people SHOULD feel. I SHOULD be happy as fuck, I SHOULD be dancing and singing all over the place, I SHOULD be telling all my friends how much I love her, I SHOULD be telling HER how much I love her. But no. I’m pissed off. Love pisses the fuck out of me in my life. And it sucks. 

In that “fuck everyone” kinda mood with a little “I don’t give a shit” on the side.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

Bob Marley (via kushandwizdom)

D. Singh To Introduce

J Dilla - Reminisce (Instrumental): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NsmkehR9KRc

It’s been a while since I’ve let my words flow
Just to let my mind go, run its own show
I’ve been tied to my stories, time to cut loose
D. Singh is the name just to introduce

And so it sets poetry in motion, no direct notion
Writing to release a little bit of the tension
Providing some insight about me to explain
Raw words just flowing in and out of my brain

But BOOM, the cage is broken, the lion has awoken
Hear me roar, every day is a battle in this war
I claw my way through each and everyday
Rip apart and feast on those in my way

But that’s another tale, that isn’t set to sail
At the docks, I keep that ship anchored at the bay
For now I’m just a skinny bearded brown kid finding his way
Poetic thoughts to bring a little happiness to someone’s day

Thought I had found the one to keep me happy
Apologies for suddenly making these rhymes all sappy
But how wrong I was about her, she’s now stuck in my past
With everything else that just wasn’t meant to last

But recently it’s been a blast, a sudden explosion of a new thing
My rhymes becoming something for someone to sing
Not about the “bling”, but about the feelings that is real
To show the people of this world I know exactly how they feel

Its surreal, the power of music connecting people
Melodically synchronized with the resonating sounds, all equal
In tuned with the beautiful rhythms that life brings us
Like kids singing songs as the wheels go round on the bus

Hoping one day my rhymes gives meaning to someone
Even after I’ve burned to ashes, it brings warmth like the sun
That my words carry on within the souls who read or hear them
So that I become a part of them after they are done

And so I go back to telling the stories of the people in this world
Whether if it’s of happiness or it’s of pain
I use my words as a gift for the feelings people can’t explain
To get someone back on track on their life’s train

Shout out to Spade, shout out to INK
And those who embrace my words so we that we could sync
For recognizing my small talent writing with a digital pen
Let my words echo far like the ring of London’s Big Ben

The Weeknd

memoriiesfadeaway:

GUESS WHOSE GOING TO SEE THE WEEKND PERFORM IN SEPTEMBER ?? 
ME ME ME ! and dsingh905 of course :D
I don’t think words can explain my state of excitement.
My first concert ever and that too i get to watch The Weekend, Jhene Aiko and Schoolboy Q perform. 
TOO EXCITED MAN TOO EXCITED ! 

fromthe5rivers:

A Muslim man reading from the Sri Guru Granth Sahib with the utmost respect. Waheguru, help us all remember that we are all one as God’s children

fromthe5rivers:

A Muslim man reading from the Sri Guru Granth Sahib with the utmost respect. Waheguru, help us all remember that we are all one as God’s children